Really hate people that are using me just to make themselves happy....try to treat me like a toy and fool me around....I know i am a soft heart person and tried to talk with you just because you are a female and something bad happened to you recently. At least please don't just pop up in IM just to ask me to play online game with you, and then suddenly offline while i was waiting for u to play another game. Also stop using words that make me think i am in relationship with you and force me to treat you nicer.

I am really sick of some girls that talk with me like this. I am not a pervert or a person that need someone to care about. I just consider you as a fd and stop toying me around.

Another week.....not really tired through out the week....but really depress...kept studying something that i am 1000% sure that i am not gonna pass it. Why i need to straggle with this? i graduated already, but why i need to study for this super hard shit? I know i keep complaining, but it's just really depress me. I don't wanna study any more, because i know my limit. I underestimate this exam at first, i thought it's gonna take a lot less time, but end up it's just too much material. I also hate to get those MC questions wrong, just hate it. Questions are way too long and confusing, and i only have 1.5 mins to answer one question, shit!!!!!!!!!Those material were stay in my brain, maybe only last for 1 day and i totally forgot about all of them.I just really hope that i can study with someone else that's taking this CPA exam....i just need someone to study with.....totally boring and pointless if i just study by myself..

guess i need to keep studying...later

Not that much progress at all for studying in these few days, just wanna relax a little bit before the nightmare starts. Trying to concentrate, but i can't. Either play FF6 on NDS, or play guild wars, Warcraft 3 online. I just don't know why people on Warcraft 3 take the game so serious. One time my teammate got team rushed and says: "Kill that hero, kill that heroooooooooo", but we let the enemy's hero gets away, my teammate got so mad and called me and my another teammate "Noobs". So I team killed that fool and he said he gonna report me and banned my account, lol. Go ahead if you can, hahaha, hate impolite players.

Tried to study this afternoon, study like 1/2 chapter and did like 81 MC question in 2 hours......this exam really kills me, and i guess this is my worst summer , with all these studies and suffering. I need to finish this exam within 1 1/2 year, life gonna be like this for 1 1/2 year, think about that. Really wanna give up 

Watched Dark Knight last night....and i think this movie is wayyyyyyyyyyy to long but it's still good.

Peace for everyone

Long timeeee!!! Really a long time that i haven't update my xanga!!! Getting lazier every day because of work and studying for CPA. I was gonna update before my old computer died, but actually it dies after i finish typing, maybe like halfway, then my computer dies.

Putting work and study togther is a bad combo, really bad. I was trying to study after work, but really too tired since i need to work in front of the computer everyday, doing company's webpage update. When i tried to study, really gets boring because studying materials are hellaaaaaaaaa dense, like 400-500 pages of stuff in one book, includes all those accounting knowledge i learnt within these 6-7 years. OMFG. I hate staying at home just to study study study, and read textbook while eating. Tried to go out with friends sometimes, but once i go out i don't wanna go back home because i scare of those boring study life.

I am very confuse about what i am doing, like VERY. I don't know why i am studying for? for higher salary? but what's the point if i get high salary without the time to spend money? I just don't know why life is all about money, doing all those studying and stuff back in college just to get money for nothing. Maybe because i don't spend much everyday, i don't drive, i don't have internet( i am using somebody's wireless wifi right now), i don't have TV cable. I only paid for my rent after i get my checks and save up some money for my parents. Is this CPA exam really that important and turn people into lifeless beings? I really don't get it, and i am still studying for it without a good reason, maybe this is life, obey to my destiny

Hope all of you are doing fine. 

Still looking for things that i want, what i dream of doing in the future.....just i guess there are nothing call dream since it's already vanish. Accounting and finance are BS majors, subjects that i hate the most and subjects that i already finish......so what can i do now? Commit suicide?but there are things that i wanna do with my fd and family in HK before i die. Burning and wasting my time in US?I already done that for 6 months. Nothing in here with me in US....no school, no job, no gf, no motivation...no point of staying here anymore.

where am i? why i don't have the same motivation like the time i was in school?I still remember those days of feeling successful after i got the highest score in accounting midterms, like 3-4 times, still having the thought of getting to the top and beat the whole class. "who said international students can't get #1 in class?" that's how i think back in old days...but now....i realized that i am such a loser 

Guess i should study for my CPA exam starting next week...which bring my mistake of choosing wrong majors in life even deeper.

I wish i can cure my depression and being motivated again